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Believing in Oneself is a form of Humility

Most of us are familiar with some version of the following story (found here):

So there is a joke you probably know on the topic of humility. The chief rabbi of the synagogue at Yom Kippur is beating his breast and crying, tears running down his cheeks “I’m nothing, Lord! I’m nothing! I’m absolutely nothing!” Next to him the chief donor to the synagogue, a wealthy banker kneels down and hits himself on the chest and yells “I’m nothing! God forgive me for thinking I’m something. I’m not. I’m nothing!” Whereupon Shlomo a poor man who sweeps the synagogue out after services and hauls trash gets down on his knees and yells “I’m nothing! I’m nothing.” The rabbi observes this, elbows the banker and whispers “Look who thinks he’s nothing.”

We tend to confuse humility, the idea that we lack pride and the idea of having an attitude that even if we are skilled and knowledgeable, it doesn’t make us inherently better than anyone else, with feelings of low self-worth and self esteem. In most spiritual practices this distinction is crucial because it can help frame a fundamental spiritual practice of self-nullification. Self-nullification is about recognizing that within the greater universe, we are practically nil. In many religions, this is described in relation to the divine, that from a divine perspective, the only real existence is the divine (see here for one example of a Jewish perspective of the definition and purpose of self-nullification).

Yet, in conjunction with this important practice, our spiritual growth can only truly become manifest if we balance this self-nullification with knowing that our lives have purpose and meaning. I have been thinking about this in relation to a piece I read last weekend from R. Elimelech Biderman in Torah Wellsprings (Parashat Beshalach – see the full piece here pgs.4-5).

To quote a few excerpts from the piece:

Reb Tzadok HaKohen (Tzidkas HaTzaddik 154) writes: “Just as one must believe in Hashem (Gd), one must also believe in himself. This means to believe that Hashem is interested in him. He must believe that his soul comes from Above, and Hashem has pleasure from him and has enjoyment when he does Hashem’s will. This is the meaning of the pasuk (verse) (Shmos ויאמינו בה’ ובמשה עבדו (14:31, ‘And they believed in Hashem and in Moshe…’ Moshe represents the six-hundred-thousand Yidden (Jews) of that generation. They believed that Hashem desires them and derives pleasure from them and from the good that’s in them.”

It is hard for people to believe that Hashem wants them because they know their faults. However, faults and errors are part of the creation of the world. This shouldn’t prevent us from believing that Hashem wants us…

From the very essence of creation, a pattern of imperfection emerged.

Yet after all of that, it states (Bereishis 1:31) וירא אלקים את כל אשר עשה והנה טוב מאוד, ”And Hashem saw all that He had made, and behold it was very good.”

This is what Hashem calls good. It is because of imperfections that Hashem created the world. Hashem has pleasure when we overcome the struggles, downfalls, blockades, and hardships and do His will. So, you can believe in yourself, even if you are imperfect. In fact, your imperfections are the purpose of the entire creation. This trait enables you to bring a nachas ruach (inner sense of wellbeing) to Hashem more than all the malachim (angels) in heaven…

Our approach in life is two fold. We must be humble in recognizing our finite nature, our inherent imperfections and our existence in relation to Gd. At the same time, we cannot see ourselves as so low and unworthy that we never strive for anything, we never strive to grow and improve and lessen the imperfections we have in life. When we have a healthy sense of self-compassion and self-worth, we are able to do the things that help us move along our paths to fulfill our goals, our purpose for being.

This is a challenging practice to work on. It can feel extremely difficult to maintain the balance between humility and self-worth. Yet, we must always be working to find the balance, the right mix, so that we are moving forward step by step, moment by moment. We have the opportunity each day to practice through prayer, through our relationships with others and through our work towards attaining our personal goals.

May we each work to foster our own balance between believing in ourselves and the humility to recognize each of us is another part of our interdependent existence.

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Rebbe Nachman’s Advice # 21 – Maintaining Simple Faith

As we have seen in many of my previous posts reflecting on Rebbe Nachman’s words, his approach is one of “simplicity” which is often misunderstood for lacking depth. Rather, it is an approach to faith that tries to remove all aspects of intellectualism as it pertains to harming our sense of belief. Most of us, this author included, struggle to balance the desire to investigate and reflect deeply while also maintaining a child-like innocence in how we see faith and belief. This includes the consumption of deep, intellectually stimulating works. As we see in the below piece, Rebbe Nachman clearly states that delving into philosophy is “destructive.”

מז. וְצָרִיךְ לִזָּהֵר מְאֹד שֶׁלֹּא לְהַבִּיט כְּלָל בַּסְּפָרִים הַמְדַבְּרִים מֵחֲקִירוֹת, כִּי הֵם מַזִּיקִים וּפוֹגְמִין מְאֹד אֶת הָאֱמוּנָה הַקְּדוֹשָׁה. וּכְבָר מְבֹאָר זֶה בְּכַמָּה מְקוֹמוֹת, אַךְ צָרִיךְ לִכְפֹּל כַּמָּה פְּעָמִים אַזְהָרָה זֹאת לְבַל יֹאבַד עוֹלָמוֹ כְּרֶגַע חַ”ו: (שם)

One has to greatly distance oneself even from the philosophical works. Such works are very damaging to faith. Now, it has already been explained in various places [in our teachings], yet it is necessary to repeat this again and again, to save oneself from destruction, God forbid (Ibid.).

I believe that Rebbe Nachman is categorizing philosophical works as those which are written to undermine faith, not works which offer a deeper and richer read of the beauty of Gd’s world. Further, if we take a statement like this in the context of the times he is living, there is clearly an Anti-Enlightenment polemic. And finally, we see that for Rebbe Nachman, there was a struggle. For those who have studied his Likkutei Moharan, you see a deeply thoughtful person who offers a depth to spirituality. It is not exactly a book of “simplicity.” I would even suggest that Likkutei Etzot, the book we are drawing these lessons from, was an approach to simplifying the message. Yet, there was a strong storytelling tradition, in which he taught deep ideas through the tales he crafted. His theory was that the story carried the simplicity and sophistication he wanted simultaneously.

For my purposes though, I think there is something more fundamental we can learn from this passage. We are by nature curious. Curiosity is valuable. And knowledge is important. Yet, in order to live a life of faith, there are times when we need to shift away from the intellectual exercises and the overthinking and just be. It is at this juncture that our actions, speech (prayers) and thoughts go from something in the mind to something coming from the depths of our humanity.

Yes, be a reader. Be a thinker. And be a person who continuously cultivates one’s faith in a way that it is not fractured, that it is as close to whole as possible. This is not easy. It is fraught with many potential pitfalls. And one need not go it alone. Find others who are on the same path and strength one another in this approach.

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Rebbe Nachman’s Advice # 20 – Verbalizing Our Desire to be Believing People

It is not simple to be faithful, believing people. The world is complicated. We constantly read about the negative things going on in the world. And even when we read something uplifting and positive, it is easy to fall back into the skeptical, when is the other shoe going to drop mode. We wish we could see things positively but it is quite difficult. Even with all the tools at our disposal, the self-help tips, etc. we still don’t have a single solution other than constant vigilance. Interestingly, Rebbe Nachman offers an approach to strengthening/reinforcing our sense of faith that is simple and profound. He suggests:

מה. הָאֱמוּנָה תּוֹלָה בַּפֶּה שֶׁל הָאָדָם, שֶׁצְּרִיכִין לְדַבֵּר הָאֱמוּנָה בַּפֶּה, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב: “אוֹדִיעַ אֱמוּנָתְךָ בְּפִי”. וְעַל־כֵּן כְּשֶׁאָדָם נוֹפֵל מֵאֱמוּנָה חַ”ו, עֵצָה לָזֶה – שֶׁיְּדַבֵּר הָאֱמוּנָה בְּפִיו, שֶׁיֹּאמַר בְּפֶה מָלֵא שֶׁהוּא מַאֲמִין וְכוּ’. כִּי זֶה בְּעַצְמוֹ שֶׁמְּדַבֵּר בְּפִיו דִּבּוּרֵי אֱמוּנָה, זֶה בְּעַצְמוֹ הוּא בְּחִינַת אֱמוּנָה. גַּם עַל־יְדֵי זֶה זוֹכֶה לָבוֹא לֶאֱמוּנָה שְׁלֵמָה, כִּי הָאֱמוּנָה תּוֹלָה בַּפֶּה שֶׁל אָדָם כַּנַּ”ל: (לק”ת סי’ מד)

Faith depends on a person’s mouth. We must say we believe — say it out loud! As it is written in the Psalms (89:1) “I will make known Your faithfulness with my mouth.” When a person has a crisis of faith, or even passing doubts, it is very good if he says out loud: “I believe.” Just expressing your faith in words is itself one kind of faith. Through doing this you can come to genuine faith (44).

Very simply, if you want it, verbalize it. Of course, if things were only this simple most of us would not be in this struggle. As such, what is underlying this suggestion?

When we verbalize our thoughts, first and foremost we are narrowing our focus through the words we choose to use. Thoughts can get jumbled and go all over the place. Speaking forces us to hear aloud the thoughts and begin to grapple with them. When it comes to faith and doubt, our mind goes through multileveled analysis, oscillating between faith and skepticism. While it is true we can say “I believe” and not really believe, once we speak those words, we begin to find it a bit harder to maintain the skepticism. Most of the time, our ideal self prefers not to be seen as a lier, even if one is alone.

To me, this verbalization is the concretization of our thoughts and feelings. When we declare to ourselves, I do believe, we are claiming that faithful side for ourselves. Does it get rid of the skepticism? No! But it does begin to guide us towards having genuine faith for it opens the door for us.

If perhaps you are struggling with your faith and desire to strengthen this part of yourself, I would suggest this as another tool to bring to the table along your journey along a path of faith and belief.

Rebbe Nachman’s Advice # 10 – Personal faith and the conflict of religion vs/ spirituality

In the modern world, the practice of a religion and the journey for increased spirituality are often at odds. Many times it is because we create false dichotomies between the two as a means of explaining away the ways of people. It is an example of how I often will say don’t a religion by the people who practice it. Religion can and should be a pathway for spiritual growth and hopefully spiritual growth will come along to help show people the beauty of time-honored ritual. Yes, our modern world doesn’t always jive with ancient ritual and yet so often we see the reintroduction of these ancient rituals as finding a “new” method for better self-care and help. My favorite of these which I often quote is when we read about the importance of a Sabbath, as if its a new notion of setting aside a day a week for “rest.”

All of the above relates to this idea of Rebbe Nachman on faith. For Rebbe Nachman, and in reality for anyone actively pursuing the spiritual, our growth and journey is built on faith, the trust of the unknown. As Rebbe Nachman posits:

כח. אֱמוּנָה אֵין שַׁיָּךְ אֶלָּא בְּדָבָר שֶׁאֵינוֹ יוֹדֵעַ טַעַם. וְאַף עַל פִּי כֵן אֵצֶל הַמַּאֲמִין הַדָּבָר גָּלוּי, כְּאִלּוּ רוֹאֶה בְּעֵינָיו אֶת הַדָּבָר שֶׁמַּאֲמִין בּוֹ מֵחֲמַת גֹּדֶל אֱמוּנָתוֹ הַשְּׁלֵמָה: (לק”א סי’ ס”ב אות ה’)

We only speak of faith when the one who believes does not know why he believes. But even so, for the believer himself the thing he believes in is perfectly clear and obvious to him — as if he saw it with his own eyes. This is because his faith is so strong (62:5).

Notice the two points in the above lines. First, is the admission of faith being something we cannot “know.” It is something non-intellectual. This doesn’t mean our faith is purely an emotional state. Rather, it is a reflection on how we cannot presume faith as intellectual, as sitting in the mind. At the same time, we also learn from this passage that our faith must be as it is “known.” Our mission is to build our internal faith into something unknown but known. It needs to remain faith, but be so clear as to be as if we know.

As it relates to the struggle of bridging religion and spirituality, too often the challenge is that religion is that which is more of a communal nature while spirituality has a stronger individualistic bent. The bridge is faith. Faith can be cultivated by the rituals and practices we take on as individuals and as a community. At the same time, faith is something that is purely individualistic, for only we can see our beliefs. The spirituality aspect is supporting the individuality that we can imbue the communal ritual with.

Today, may we continue to work to cultivate and enhance our personal faith/spirituality while also finding the ways to bring that spirituality into our communal, religiously inspired rituals.

Rebbe Nachman’s Advice # 5 – Growing our Faith beyond the intellect

As we continue to explore some key points of faith as per Rebbe Nachman, this short piece is fundamental to his thought as well as a good reflection on the ideal engagement with faith.

יד. אֲפִלּוּ מִי שֶׁזּוֹכֶה לְהַמְשִׁיךְ אֵיזֶה שֵׂכֶל דִּקְדֻשָּׁה, צָרִיךְ לְהַמְשִׁיךְ אֱמוּנָה לְתוֹךְ הַשֵּׂכֶל, כִּי אֵין לִסְמֹךְ עַל הַשֵּׂכֶל בְּעַצְמוֹ: (לק”א סי’ כ”ד אות ו’)

Even a person who attains a certain level of religious insight and understanding must take good care to ensure that the perception he has is suffused with faith. Intellect alone is not something to rely upon (24:6).

For faith to have an impact on our lives, it cannot just reside in our minds. Faith needs to find its place in our heart, in the depth of who we are. How many of us struggle with faith not because we don’t have it but because we work too hard to try to understand the world. We are educated to think, debate, hypothesize, experiment and sometimes we forget the simple beauty of just seeing what is right there in front of us. Rebbe Nachman warns that the more we learn, the more we think we know, the more we must also work to strengthen the tie to the emotional feeling that is faith. I believe it is from that feeling that is faith we draw on the strength to withstand traumas and crises.

But this is no easy task. It is hard work to get to this place. How do we do that without intellectualizing our faith? Perhaps this is the power and beauty that we can find in prayer. Through prayer, we approach the world from a place of recognizing lack and looking to Gd to show us how to fill up what is missing. Prayer as a regular practice goes beyond knowledge. While it is important to have a deep understanding of the words we are saying, the deeper investment of energy in tefillah, prayer, is in allowing each time we pray to be a new experience, leaving the intellectual to the side and approaching it from the emotional.

May each of us find and cultivate our individual reservoir of faith as we also work to learn and increase our knowledge and understanding of the world.

Rebbe Nachman’s Advice # 3 – Belief as it relates to the sacredness of the miracle of Time and Space

Are there actual miracles in the world? Can we be open to the concept that even the events that we think are natural are miraculous? Do we just rely on our knowledge, which blinds us to seeing the beauty and sacredness all around us?

I have suggested that our understanding of miracles has become more sophisticated. This is a double-edged sword. We can see the miraculous even in moments that we have a clear sense of the nature of what we are witnessing and yet, because we know more, we tend not to be able to experience the miraculous with as much excitement and wonder. Because of this, our skepticism gets in the way of our experiencing the world.

For Rebbe Nachman, as part of his perspectives on faith as culled together in Likkutei Etzot, recognizing the possibility of the miraculous, something seeming beyond the norm, is an important element of developing, strengthening and maintaining our faith. As he says:

ז. אֵלּוּ בְּנֵי אָדָם הַמַּכְחִישִׁים כָּל הַנִּסִּים, וְאוֹמְרִים שֶׁהַכֹּל דֶּרֶךְ הַטֶּבַע, וְאִם רוֹאִים אֵיזֶה נֵס הֵם מְכַסִּים הַנֵּס עִם דֶּרֶךְ הַטֶּבַע, שֶׁאוֹמְרִים שֶׁזֶּה דֶּרֶךְ הַטְּבָעִים, הֵם פּוֹגְמִים בָּאֱמוּנָה מְאֹד, וּפוֹגְמִים בַּתְּפִלָּה וּבְאֶרֶץ יִשְׂרָאֵל, וְהֵם מַאֲרִיכִין אֶת הַגָּלוּת: (שם אות ה’)

The people who deny that miracles are possible and claim that everything that takes place has a natural explanation can actually witness a miracle themselves and still try and glaze over it and explain it away. Naturally, this attitude of mind is very damaging to religious faith. It is harmful to prayer, and people’s understanding of the true significance of the Land of Israel becomes obscured. All this contributes to the lengthening of the exile (Ibid. 2).

Before unpacking this idea, I would highlight a summarization of this concept from earlier in this section of Likkutei Etzot:

ב. אֱמוּנָה וּתְפִלָּה וְנִסִּים וְאֶרֶץ יִשְׂרָאֵל הֵם בְּחִינָה אַחַת, וְכֻלָּם תְּלוּיִים זֶה בָּזֶה: (שם)

Faith, prayer, miracles and the Land of Israel are all one concept. They are all dependent upon each other (Ibid.).

If we remove the belief in the miraculous, we run the risk of losing the feelings of awe and wonder that is the beauty in the world. If we lose this sense of awe, we presume everything has a direct correlation, instead of maintaining a sense of the faith we often need to help guide us through challenging moments. Without this faith, why would we pray, since how can prayer ever make a change. And finally, we close ourselves off the sacredness of time and space, as exemplified by the notion of that the true significance of Israel is obscured, for part of the true significance of Israel is the notion that place can be sacred.

Rebbe Nachman is advising us to be open to experiencing things without having to intellectualize them. If we allow for experience, we open ourselves up to feeling the changes between the mundane and sacred. How do we feel the difference between a weekday and Shabbat if we merely just look at a calendar? How do we see the beauty of Gd’s creation if all we are doing is driving through? When we experience the sacredness, we feel the inspiration to grow, to connect, to recognize the faith of the “unknown.”

May we be able to open our hearts and minds to truly feel the holiness and sacred of our world. May we recognize how different times and different spaces have different vibes.